What I've Never Found Is Me
I've been running in the blinding sun
I've prayed in the sleepless dark
And still I've never found it
No, I've never found it
I've been convinced that dreams do matter
I've been mired in reality
I've believed the future would always be brighter
But what I've never found is me
What I've never found is me
I've been tempted by freedom covered in thorns
I've been vexed by the bright bloom of youth
I've drunk down the poison of love and faith
And burned like a star
Burned like a star
I've known the feeling of a warm embrace
I've had a home for my heart and soul
I've believed in happily ever after
But then the story changed
Then the story changed
I've had a little taste of the sweetness of life
I've known the long torment of the soul
I've thought I could live proud one day
But I'm always being tossed across the sky
Like a grass seed in a storm
Like a grass seed in a storm
I've passed through the crowds through the endless silence
Through shining cities through howling winds
I've found a hundred thousand ways of being
But who'd have ever thought
I've found a hidden sun
I've found a secret moon
But what I've never found is me
No, what I've never really found is me
Translated by Austin Woerner and Emily Xinyao Lei
About the translators
Austin Woerner is a Creative Fellow in Chinese-English literary translation at the University of Leeds.
Emily Xinyao Lei is an alumna of the MA in English Literature course at the School of English, University of Leeds.